love just so easily falls into some people's laps, don't it?

but i'm done wondering if there's something wrong with me

all i can really do is keep my head up. keep it moving

in the face of absurdity, i smile with all my teeth.

i miss how it felt smoking weed with you in the back of your house

listening to king krule

back when it was illegal – i was anxious and scared

but i felt so safe in your arms

your arms, expanded

it never occured to me that things would change

but they didn't really. we planted the seeds that would come into fruition

+ i'm older now, munching that perennial fruit

you really had me worried for a moment there...

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